On the Way to Becoming Me

It's been awhile since my last post...almost a year!  As is life, the last few months have been full of many ups and downs.  While there have many blessings to be grateful for, there has also been so much loss.  I honestly think there has not been a month since the start of the year where there has not been a funeral to attend.  This year, many of my friends and extended family experienced the loss of loved ones both young and old.  My family, too, experienced the loss of my grandmother.  My grandmother, who I called, Mommom , passed away on February 25 after battling dementia for some time.  She had such a strong presence in my life, and I still find it so hard to believe she's gone.  Grief is a funny thing.  It's like one minute you're going along just fine, and then out of nowhere a familiar smell or a memory or a picture or something your kid does, reminds you of the person and there you are a mess....all over again!  Losing ...

A couple of months ago, I wrote a post titled "My Love Affair with Winter."  Perhaps you read it, but if not check it out at some point.  It was my first post, and I think it was pretty good (if I do say so myself).  Anywho, in that post I used winter as a metaphor for the challenging times that we all face at some point or other our lives.  In this post, I want to reflect on something that you don't think will ever come when in the depths of winter....spring. Recently I was listening to my all-time favorite album, "The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill," and even though I've heard EVERY song about a gazillion times, one lyric in particular resonated with me on this particular day.  On the track, "Everything is Everything," L-Boogie spits out encouragement to listeners by simply saying, "after winter MUST come spring, change it comes eventually."  Wow! Did you take that in?  I mean, did you really let it seep deep down in your spirit?  You ...